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We Need More
There is nothing I want more than to bury my head under my covers, close my eyes, count to ten, and wait until the storm is over like I did when I was 3. But I’m not 3 anymore and the monsters don’t hide under my bed or reside in the confines of dystopian novels.…
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A Normal Day
I was meeting up with my friend who I hadn’t seen in years and I was excited. Normally, a part of me would be itching to find a way out of an outing, especially one in the city. Instead of giving in, I found myself seated in front of her with a coffee in hand…
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Puzzle Pieces
This year I felt myself break into a million pieces like the puzzles I used to complete with my Grandmother in the mountains. We’d marvel at the masterpiece we created and it always looked better than it did on the box. I would run my fingers over the bubbled pieces and marvel at how everything…
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Lessons Learned
“Write hard and clear about what hurts.” – Ernest Hemmingway This condition has brought out the worst in me. It’s made me bitter, angry, and ungrateful which is someone I never wanted to become. I’ve always tried my best to be thankful for everything in my life and lead it with love and kindness. So,…
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If I’m Being Honest
“You are not the darkness you endured. You are the light that refused to surrender.” – John Green There are days where I feel crushed by the weight of my own existence. I am Atlas, holding up my world, knowing that the only option is to suffer through it. Hoping that this pain isn’t as…
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Not a New York Minute
“But we cannot simply sit and stare at our wounds forever.” -Haruki Murakami I never liked the city. When I was younger I could list everything I hated about the city as easily as listing my favorite books. I associated it with the fear of losing sight of my siblings, long car rides with stressed…
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Giving Thanks
“Talk to yourself like someone you love.” – Brene Brown In middle school I was a cheerleader. It’s hilarious to think about because at the time, it confused most people and even to this day when I mention it, people tilt their heads to the side slightly and squint. Like if they strain hard enough,…
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Spring Day
“No darkness, no season can last forever.” – BTS Spring Day Spring is a symbol of new beginnings to me. It’s the yearly reminder that there is a light at the end of the very cold (and sometimes snowy) tunnel. This situation is my cold tunnel and the new life I’m learning to navigate is…
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March 28, 2023 – Facing Reality
Yesterday, I had an odd experience ringing up a customer. I find myself in precarious situations often working in retail. I can’t tell if shopping for clothes makes people open up more or if they can sense that I go to school for psychology because I swear, at least once a day, I’m learning personal…
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The New Guy
“People who need help sometimes look a lot like people who don’t need help.” – Glennon Doyle Let’s address the elephant in the room. It’s time to introduce Jean-Ralphio so you all can get to know him better since it seems like him and I might be in it for the long-haul. Jean-Ralphio is a…
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